Bored
I am bored today. Actually, I have been bored for days and days now. It seems like there is nothing that keeps my attention for longer than a few minutes. I can’t believe that there is nothing that really sparks my imagination, but there isn’t. TV is the same old stuff. I watch the news and get depressed over the mess the world is in. I try to listen to music, but nothing seems to soothe my soul. So, I decided to at least to post an entry today. That will give me something to do. So, here I go.
I really don’t have much to say today. Life is going pretty well…nothing to complain about…nothing to brag about. I really wish there was something that I could do everyday that will keep me busy during the day instead of staying home and doing nothing. I could go back to school, but my life partner wants me to wait until we get an answer about her disability case. It seems that everything has been put on hold while we wait for her disability claim to go through. So far, we have been waiting about two years on an answer. In the meantime, we are in financial crisis. If it was not for her family and my mother we would not make it financially.
Depending on other folks for financial help really gets under my skin. I hate it. I get disability. 100% of my benefits go into caring for the home. I don’t mind contributing so much since we are partners in love and life, but my meager benefit check only puts a slight dent in our financial troubles. Since my disability is not enough to cover every bill, we have we have to almost beg family memebers to help. This has put a real strain on our relationship and our finances. We don’t know from month to month if we are going to make it, and we have to watch every penny. There are times when we don’t have enough and we have to ask for even more help, which adds to the stress of an already stressful situation. It will be another year before we get an answer from social security. In the meantime, I will try to be as supportive as I can be towards my life partner and keep on hoping for a better day when we are financially secure.